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19 November 2014 @ 07:05 pm
Hello there,
because I got some messages in the past weeks/months I decided to make a short post, explaining the situation.

I know that most of the links are dead by now and I'm sorry for that. But because I generally decided to not share stuff due to personal reasons/decisions I won't reupload anything anymore.
If I have some freetime I probably will check all the download posts and delete the ones with dead links.
I'm really sorry for this, if you search for videos I recommend you to check kamesactuary's download masterpost (they should have all Kame and KT videos)
You also could check weibo, they often have links which still work.

Sorry for the inconvenience and not answering the messages! University takes more time now, so I don't manage to check livejournal as often as I did before.

25 November 2015 @ 12:55 am
I was 18 when I became a fan of you, a very passionate fan. I spent the first months doing nothing but listening to your music, watching your shows and saving your pictures. I started buying everything I could lay my hands on. First it was old photobooks and pamphlets. Just 3 months after becoming a fan I bought your first album which was released. Chain. I remember listening to Yuki no Hana for hours, doing nothing but sitting infront of my computer and crying. And I still cry everytime I hear this song, I probably forever will.
I became a part of your fandom. I took part in every discussion, discussed every little scandal.
I loved some fans, I hated some. I did a lot of stupid things; I had a lot of stupid opinions, I tended to look down on some people, because I thought that my opinion was better, that I was a better fan, that I was doing things the right way. Ironically it was the other way round, I was a childish, probably stupid fan.
I learnt, I grew up, I changed my opinions, I changed my attitude and even my fandom friends changed over time. I lost contact to some, I fought with some, but I also met new amazing people. Everything changed bit by bit. The only thing which didn’t change was my deep, unshakable love for you.
I cried. I cried so much in 2013, when someone I was fully trusting with my little naive fan heart did unimaginable things and left the group. I felt betrayed, hurt and very angry. But my love for you didn’t change. It didn’t waver. No, it become stronger and I was sure that now, finally after so many obstacles, we, fans could enjoy a lot more years to follow.
But a human’s heart seldom stay the same, we change. We change all the time.
So I continued changing. Rather than losing interest in you, I discovered a lot of new things which excited me, a lot of new people who made my life a little bit different, did a lot of new things, travelled to a lot new places, adopted to a new environment.
And while I still loved you deeply, you weren’t the centre of my life, like you once were. My priorities changed, my life changed, my opinions changed. And that made me realize a simple thing.
Idols are just people too. They too, do change. Something which made them the happiest person ever once, probably still makes them happy but they probably also have different things in life which are just as important if not even more important for them. Sometimes it is very hard to let go, but maybe they reach a point in their life when they do understand that while it is hard, they can’t go on. They have to stop, take a different path, and do something new, something what will maybe make them even happier.
As fan, in the past and now, it was and still is my first priority to see people I admire and love be happy. And if this means that I have to see them leaving a group I love, I still will accept it, without any grudge, without any vile thoughts. Because they too, have every right to change and to decide what is best for them and for their future.
Thank you Junno, thank you KAT-TUN.
I had an amazing time. I was a happy fan. I loved, love and will probably forever love you. I don’t regret any moment of being your fan, even tho looking back there probably were almost as many sad moments as there were happy ones. You are indeed a group which wanted to live on the edge.
Right now, I don’t see any way as you could continue with just 3 members, but what ever your decision will be, I will gladly accept and respect it. I’m surely not as a passionate fan as I once was, but this time with you will forever have an important place in my heart.
Thank you. Be happy. All of you. 
18 September 2015 @ 11:50 am

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02 February 2015 @ 03:53 pm
Okay...so I'm doing this because farsju ...said that I could do it. Which sounded more like I should do it. So she kinda tempted me. So everything is your fault, duh.
Please remember that I tried not to think too long about it and didn't want to offened anyone's feelings. So please don't take the answer too seriously...and even when I'm talking about my least favorite member in a group is doesn't mean that I don't hate him. I like most of them....so yeah =))

[meme!! =D]Introduction

Which Johnny's unit is your favorite? KAT-TUN
Why? Obviously cause of their amazingly flawless dance skills, hah!
Who is your favorite Johnny? Kame
What Junior/Junior unit do you hope will debut next? I really don't know a lot about Juniors...or how popular they are and who has any chance to debut but I really like Yasui Kentaro, he is adorable.
Who is your favorite senpai unit (Before SMAP)? Shounentai
When was your very first contact with a Johnny? When my best friend showed me some Arashi video? I think? Maybe their concert? Or maybe it was Stand Up? I think I knew that two of the guys were Johnny's? Anyway...I think it was in the first half of 2011. So quite late u_u
How did you learn about him/them? See the answer above.
Do you have a favorite actor in Johnny’s? Kameeeeee
What was your very first drama starring a Johnny? Uhm. I think Stand Up? Or HanaKimi? I don't remember which one I watched first.
Do you have a favorite drama starring a Johnny?
What Johnny's drama have you watched lately? errm...lately >_> I kinda stopped watching dramas because this semester was hell and I'm always too tired/busy to watch anything where I really have to pay attention to what's going on. But I think the last drama was Bad Boys J?
Who do you wish would act in a drama (that hasn’t already, of course)? I think all my favorite Johnny's were in dramas already?
How many times a day do you think about Johnny’s/your favorite unit? O.o No idea. Often enough.
Do you have a Johnnys group/ Johnny on your desktop wallpaper? Yes.
What would you do if your favorite Johnny knocked on your door? ...Not open it. x_x
What advantages does liking Johnny’s/Johnny’s groups give you? A lot actually =) First I'm studying japanese in University and also plan to work with something related to it. So of course it's a great thing to like Johnny's. Also it brings me a lot of happiness and I managed to meet a lot of great people thanks to it =3
What disadvantages does it give you? That I don't have much money to spend on outher things u_u And that Japan is so far away that I can't enjoy quite a lot of things.
Have you ever dreamt about a Johnny? Yes. My favorite will stay the one where I was hunted my a real turtle which was totally pissed off while I was screaming that I'm just a nice fan who really likes him and that I haven't done anything bad to deserve this...eeeehehe. Also I had a whole series of dreams where Kame got married and quiet his career. (thank God they stopped x_x It's really not nice to dream about your idol going away and never come baaaack ;_;)
If yes, what was the dream about? see...answer above XD
If you could make one wish about Johnny’s, what would it be? That they all had a bangumi together where they would sind songs, play silly games and just talk. I'm tired of the factions thingy...and now we can't even look forward to the countdowns anymore.
If you were a Johnny, who would you be? No idea. Can't imagine it at all.
If you could ask your favorite Johnny a question, what would it be? What do you think about akb groups when you sit next to them on Music Station.
What is your #1 favorite song by a Johnny's group? I don't think I have one... But. If I had to choose I probably would chose something old. Like from shounentai...or Matchy.
Do you listen to Johnny's music the most? yes I think so.
Which band/singer did you listen/like the most before Johnny's? I was a huge vkei/j-rock fan before. My fav was Gazette.
If you were Johnny, what would you change about the Jimusho? The 'no photos' rules. I would try to expand their influence by using internet and youtube.


Why do you like/dislike this group? Well Smap is Smap =) I think they are quite an...legendary group, which influenced a lot in Japanese music industry and in Johnny's. I think they are amazing hosts and all have a very interesting character.
Who is your favorite member? Kimura *^*
Why? Because it's Kimura *happy sigh* You could bath in his charisma. He is amazing.
Who is your least favorite member? I don't really have any. But if I had to rank them...probably Shingo would be the last one.
Why? Don't really get his sense of humour that much.
What is your favorite PV? I haven't watched a lot. But I really like the one of 'Mistake'. Very classy.
What is your favorite song? Battery
Do you have a favorite concert performance? ... I don't think I have watched any concerts >__<'
Which member do you think sings the best? Kimura
Which member do you think dances the best? ehhhh....no idea.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Kimura.
Which member do you think the manliest? Kimura
Which member do you think is the cutest? Nakai <3
Which member do you think is the funniest? Nakai
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Kimura XD


Why do you like/dislike this group? I find it quite amazing that they are a real bad even tho they're idols.
Who is your favorite member? Taichi
Why? I loved his character in all the shounen club premium episodes. He seems like such a calm and deep person. <3
Who is your least favorite member? Nagase
Why? He is...weird.
What is your favorite PV? Haven't watched many.
What is your favorite song? Sorafune!
Do you have a favorite concert performance? Haven't watched any.
Which member do you think sings the best? Well...Nagase? XD
Which member do you think dances the best? They don't really dance...
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Erm. I don't think anyone of them is 'pretty'. Handsome yes...but not pretty.
Which member do you think the manliest? Yamaguchi *_*
Which member do you think is the cutest? Leader!
Which member do you think is the funniest? Matsuoka.
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Also Matsuoka.


Why do you like/dislike this group? Their dancing is amazing *_* Also they seem to be such funny and cool people <333
Who is your favorite member? HmHm. This is difficult. Hmmmm....Inochi maybe.
Why? He is so so sweet <3
Who is your least favorite member? Sakamoto
Why? No reason. I just don't know much about him (yet)
What is your favorite PV? Supernova *___*
What is your favorite song? rock your soul
Do you have a favorite concert performance?
Which member do you think sings the best? Okada
Which member do you think dances the best? No idea...they all are so amazing.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? and again...I don't find any of them 'pretty'
Which member do you think the manliest? Okada
Which member do you think is the cutest? Ken <3 Little chibi baby
Which member do you think is the funniest? Morita Go

Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Okada XD

KinKi Kids

Why do you like/dislike this group? They are amazing. I really like their songs...which is weird because I'm not a big fan of ballads. But I really like thier. I also think that they are two amazingly creative people who just form a really great duo.
Who is your favorite member? Koichi
Why? I love his music =)
Who is your least favorite member? No one.
What is your favorite PV? Mhm don't really have any.
What is your favorite song? やめないで,PURE. Beeeeest ♥
Do you have a favorite concert performance? I haven't watched any
Which member do you think sings the best? They both are amazing.
Which member do you think dances the best? Koichi.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Koichi.
Which member do you think the manliest? Tsuyoshi ;-)
Which member do you think is the cutest? Tsuyoshi.
Which member do you think is the funniest? Tsuyoshi.
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Koichi.


Why do you like/dislike this group? I liked them a lot 3 years ago, am not that interested. They areally funny and nice but lately I have the feeling that they become too mainstream.
Who is your favorite member? erm. right now probably MatsuJun.
Why? He is funny and he seems to really enjoy his job.
Who is your least favorite member? Nino.
Why? I really disliked some things he said...even if it was probably supposed to be a joke.
What is your favorite PV? Face Down!
What is your favorite song? I really, really love 'Tell me why'
Do you have a favorite concert performance? I watched some of their concerts...but I don't really remember anything. (except for Jun's solos XDD)
Which member do you think sings the best? Ohno.
Which member do you think dances the best? Ohno.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? MatsuJun?
Which member do you think the manliest? ... no idea.
Which member do you think is the cutest? Aiba.
Which member do you think is the funniest? Aiba.
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? errrmmmmmmm...no idea.

Tackey & Tsubasa

Why do you like/dislike this group? They are funny and sweet =) And seem to really enjoy everything they do.
Who is your favorite member? Tsubasa
Why? I love his dancing and honest character.
Who is your least favorite member? ...the ando ;-)
Why? heh
What is your favorite PV? Kamen (Not because of the name >_>) It's really really pretty.
What is your favorite song? Real Dx!
Do you have a favorite concert performance? I'm really not good at remembering concerts >___<'''' But I really loved the one where they were like...in small boats under water without clothes. This was fun XD (and I know it doesn't count because it's only a Tackey performance but I really love his ero song performances XD)
Which member do you think sings the best? Tsubasa
Which member do you think dances the best? Tsubasa
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Tackey
Which member do you think the manliest? Tsubasa
Which member do you think is the cutest? Tackey
Which member do you think is the funniest? Tsubasa
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Tsubasa...tho Tackey muscles are quite amazing O.o


Why do you like/dislike this group? Oh I love them *__* Precious babies. I like everything about them. Their music, their personalities, their performances =) (also because it's pretty important for me: I only start to like them /so much/ when they became 4. I also like their 4nin songs the most...they just sound better for me)
Who is your favorite member? Massu ♥♥♥
Why? I adore him. He is so sweet and shy and nice and wonderful. Haaaah <3333
Who is your least favorite member? I don't really have one.
What is your favorite PV? Hmmmm. Kaguya XD
What is your favorite song? This is difficult. I really love most of their songs. But I think 'Dance in the Dark' is my favorite.
Do you have a favorite concert performance? Yes, Bambina. And yes, because of the super gay clothes XDDD
Which member do you think sings the best? This is difficult. I know Tegoshi is considered to be quite the great singer and he is really good...but there are just so many moments when I cringe because he just misses a note or sings too high. So he probably still has the best singing abilty but I like Massu's voice more.
Which member do you think dances the best? Massu.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Tegoshi of course XD
Which member do you think the manliest? Shige
Which member do you think is the cutest? Massu
Which member do you think is the funniest? Tegoshi
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Massu

*Your current thoughts on Yamapi?
Where...is he? Everything is so quiet...hope he will release a nice single or album soon. And I hope he finally ended his creative phase and will continue to sing club songs, cause I like them the most XD


Why do you like/dislike this group? ...Sadly they probably are the only Johnny's group I really don't like. I don't really enjoy their music and they are just too lous and too crazy for me. I think the main point about them is their humour and their jokes...and if you don't find them funny there is not that much left to like. (I find it quite cool that they also have quite a lot of band songs...but I don't really like them either >__<')
Who is your favorite member? Ohkura.
Why? Because he seems like the most grown up. I like him. He is quiet but funny.
Who is your least favorite member? Subaru
Why? Because he scares me. And when he doesn't scare me he annoys me with his 'I'm a depressive emo and I don't give a fuck'  attitude. So uhm. yeah.
What is your favorite PV? -
What is your favorite song? I really like Dear Summer様!!
Do you have a favorite concert performance? Haven't watched their concerts
Which member do you think sings the best? Ryo?
Which member do you think dances the best? no idea
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Ohkura
Which member do you think the manliest? Ryo
Which member do you think is the cutest? Yasuda
Which member do you think is the funniest? Yasuda
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Ohkura


Why do you like/dislike this group? This is such a difficult question. >__< I love them. I think back then I started to like them cause they had cool rock-ish songs and a cool image, and as J-rock fan it was probably what appealed to me. I don't really care about it that much anymore. I started to adore their ballads...and this says quite a lot. I love their characters, I love how sometimes they totally fail in dancing and singing and being funny or being cool. They don't take themselves too serious but they do everything to please their fans and give their best at work. They are not the funniest, not the most talented, not most handsome, not the most charistmatic people but they are the best in being KAT-TUN and this why I really, really love them.
Who is your favorite member? Kame
Why? Because he is a terrible human being with too many complexes to count, a sometimes horrible dressing style and too much money which he spends on stupid things. Because he still has a low self confidence and tries overplay it by acting cool, a way too complex way of talking and expressing his thoughts and the habit to live a life without wanting to bother people with his problems and his fears. Because he has a big heart which has lots of place for KAT-TUN, his friends, his family an his fans. Because he gives you the feeling that he lives his life to the fullest and enjoys every moment of it because he is thirsty for every little opportunity and every little adeventure which is given to him. I love him for his character flaws, for his dreams and goals, for his attitude towards people and the world around him. Because by looking at him, you also want to give your best because you know he does.
Who is your least favorite member? No one.
What is your favorite PV? Star Rider. I love their dancing...and their tight pants *g*
What is your favorite song? Really no idea. Too many.
Do you have a favorite concert performance? TOO MANY.
Which member do you think sings the best? No one XD
Which member do you think dances the best? Junno.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Ueda.
Which member do you think the manliest? Junno.
Which member do you think is the cutest? Junno.
Which member do you think is the funniest? Junno.
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Junno.
Ahahahaha and now ask yourself why I actually like Kame and not Junno ;-)

Hey! Say! Jump!

Why do you like/dislike this group? I....actually really tried to get into them. But I really think the fact that there are just /so/ many of them makes it pretty difficult to get hooked. But I /really/ enjoyed their last album so if they continue to go in that direction I might at least be more interested into their music =)
Who is your favorite member? Yamada
Why? He is cute.
Who is your least favorite member? I still don't know all of them...so errrrm.
What is your favorite PV? Your seed
What is your favorite song? Forever
Do you have a favorite concert performance? -
Which member do you think sings the best? No idea
Which member do you think dances the best? -
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Yamada
Which member do you think the manliest? Nakajima Yuto
Which member do you think is the cutest? Yamada
Which member do you think is the funniest? -
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Nakajima Yuto


Why do you like/dislike this group? I love their music. Music wise they are probably my second fav group. Great rock-ish upbeat songs! Also they are funny and nice =)
Who is your favorite member? Taipi
Why? I actually hated him because he was in all KT's concerts and performances and just /everywhere/ but then something changed and I really strated to like him. He is sweet and funny and has a lot of charisma when performing.
Who is your least favorite member? Wataru
Why? I really don't know a lot about him
What is your favorite PV? I really like Fire Beat a lot
What is your favorite song? Black & White
Do you have a favorite concert performance? ^^'
Which member do you think sings the best? Taipi
Which member do you think dances the best? Senga!
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Tamamori
Which member do you think the manliest? Kitayama
Which member do you think is the cutest? Taipi
Which member do you think is the funniest? Senga
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? ... Tamamori

Sexy Zone

Why do you like/dislike this group? Hahahaha I could actually say that I don't really like them because I dislike all the concept of calling them Sexy Zone and making them appear sexy all time even when they were younger and everything. But... they actually really do entertain me XD So I probably still like them a lot...even if it's more of a 'wtf are you even doing' type of liking.
Who is your favorite member? And again this is so difficult because I don't really...like them. So no idea XD I would say Fuma
Why? just because it cracks me up how much he resembles Jin XD
Who is your least favorite member? Idk really XD
What is your favorite PV? King & Queen & Joker.
What is your favorite song? Ghost
Do you have a favorite concert performance? Probably also Ghost. Minus the gay thingy where they looked like a sandwhich...
Which member do you think sings the best? Fuma...XD
Which member do you think dances the best? No idea
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Shori
Which member do you think the manliest? lol
Which member do you think is the cutest? Sou
Which member do you think is the funniest? Sou
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Sou when he grows up. And maybe Shori.


Soory, I'm going to leave them out because I really don't know anything about them.

Johnny’s West

Why do you like/dislike this group? They are fun =DD I watched some of their making and short videos and they really seem to be really really funny and sweet guys. I'm looking forward to see more of them!
Who is your favorite member? Junta
Why? He is pretty and cute and adorable ♥
Who is your least favorite member? Tomohiro
Why? Dunno. He was so quiet all the time that I didn't pay much attention to him.
What is your favorite PV? Yume o dakishimete
What is your favorite song? Criminal
Do you have a favorite concert performance? -
Which member do you think sings the best? Don't know yet
Which member do you think dances the best? They all seemed to be pretty talented.
Which member do you think is the prettiest? Junta =D
Which member do you think the manliest? Hamada
Which member do you think is the cutest? Junta ;-)
Which member do you think is the funniest? Kiriyama
Which member do you think has the best physical appearance? Hm. Shige.

Tokyo Juniors
no...single idea.

Kansai Juniors
Soo...hello. Long time no see. It's like 6 a.m here and I barely slept for 4 hours but I'm kinda not tired anymore.

I have no idea how many of you have heard about it (because I still have the feeling that some fans haven't joined Twitter) but a few days ago a fan requested information directly from Oricon asking whether they would count intl sales and the answer was pretty shocking because well, they said they don't.
I know that this always was a highly discussed issue and that lots and lots and lots of people have asked online stores like CdJapan and YesAsia whether intl sales would count and the answer was *always* positive. Even when some fans contacted them a few days ago asking again. It still was fishy, and I really don't like fishy stuff so I contacted them again, this time sending them the official reply from oricon the girl got and asking whether the data they send to Oricon actually contains the information about the stuff being sold internationally or just within Japan.

Here the reply I got: (just click for bigger size)

I think it's needless to say that I'm pissed. Not even because it doesn't count (cause I think it perfectly makes sense. Oricon was *always* a very limted thing, having stores which haven't contributed to Oricon etc.) but I'm pissed because I simply don't trust their 'omg we haven't known'. CdJapan/YesAsia is mostly used by intl fans. Intl fans who would like to support their artists. If they know that their sales don't count in oricon then there is actually no need to buy releases immidiately. You can just wait till you're in Japan...or till someone in Japan buys it for you etc etc,
So of course I might be wrong, but for me it really feels like they perfectly knew it and just had to give in know because lots of people asked them questions.
Of course it also can be that Oricon existing in such a country as Japan with it's super nice attitutde towards oversea countries just doesn't gave a shit to tell that not all their data is being collected...who knows.
Fact is that it doesn't count and we all can shut up about contributing. (my heart kinda aches after Isi having told jp fans that they should shut up because we also buy in oricon stores)
Telling this, I also would like to say that they whole 'OMG their sales would be so much higher!!!!!' is not necessarly true. As much as we love to say that intl fans also buy stuff, all in all we are...just a few people. Intl fandom is not that big to begin with and just s small part of it actually buys stuff...Also please keep in mind that KT (or your own fav. group) is not the only one for whom it doesn't count, so there is no need to say that it's 'unfair'.

If this happened a year ago, or half a year ago, I would be probably running around thinking how we can manage a system where intl fans who are in Japan at the moment could purchase releases for everyone else, but I'm really not as active as I was in fandom before (fandom as in = interacting with fans) so I really...am not up for this. But if you actually still would like your sales to count I would really suggest to search for someone living in Japan. There are enough services/ people who offer this. And our fandom has lots of nice people who are always willing to help.

Other then this...even tho I feel like a bitch (because I *do* understand that now knowing this, fans will buy less...and in the end buying stuff *always* means supporting, no matter whether it counts for oricon or not) I hope people will spread this information (especially in other fandoms, because I can reach a lot of KT fans by posting that on my twitter but well nobody else) because it's just not nice if you don't know the truth...and I would like every fan to have the possibilty to decide for themselves whether they still want to buy every single release or just save money and go to Japan. 
10 January 2014 @ 11:30 pm
Same warning as last time tbh. If you're too sensitive and believe in the never ending friendship of current and ex members (especially Koki) you might not want to read this...so you're free to skip this post ^___^
(other then this I don't guarantee everything to be 100% true because I was too lazy to check some things again for their accuracy)

I guess everyone heard what Kame was saying during the concert. Be it from various fanreports from fans who were there or the bit they showed during the shuichi concert footage from last week.
It was smth along the words 'we won't ignore our past anymore including Akanishi and Tanaka' and I guess this bit made lots of fans happy. The 6nin fans because he mentioned Jin's name and for all the others because it meant a clear and pretty cut and the beginning of a new time period.
(Personally, but these are just my two cents, I really think that this was a really good decision to say it, because I still think that acting like they were never 6 and making Jin's mere name into a huge taboo topic was a stupid decision. You can't erase people no matter how much you want, and if you desperately try to not talk about smth or someone then of course exactly this will stir more drama and wank. So I really do believe that if they acted the same already in 2010 this fandom would have had way less 6nin vs 5nin wars. But it's not like we can change it, and I'm already happy as long as this whole thing will never turn into a 6 vs 5 vs 4 nin fans war. Ugh)
But personally after hearing this I didn't even think too much about it, because it just looked as 'we will accept our whole history and will move forward' and I really didn't think that anyone out of KT would spend more time talking about any ex members.

I guess I was wrong.

After the concerts there was another little wave of shock in fandom because some 'messages' were translated which you can find here
Personally I would be very, very careful about fully trusting this tho. There is no source and no one has any idea where it comes from. And even tho these words really sound like the boys might have said them...I wouldn't say that this is true. (Chances are that they were taken from this 'unofficial Johnny's' books. And well you can imagine how much you can believe in this stuff if even JE itself managed to sue one of the publishers of the previous books and most of the pages there consist of papa pics.)

Besides these messages, which are hardly trustful, there were also various fanreports which stated that during one of the fanmeetings? Kame said that he will try to surpass both, Akanishi and Tanaka.
But this doesn't seem to be true either because lots of people who were there too insisted that this never happened.
(At this point I would really like to say how tired I am that lately you have more wrong than truth statements in this fandom. I wish we all could check the sources, check the translations and leave our fingers from Google translator before running to twitter and shouting that it's 'OFFICIAL'.)(Like dvd which was never announced either. Oh and the hair cut you might have seen is fake too btw)

So I guess at this point some people were already a bit pissed (even tho nothing actually happened XD).
After this on another fanmeeting...Kame said something about him loving KT and that everyone who didn't feel the same way from beginning onwards has already left. This thing...also had about 3 different translations I think? We had people who insisted that he said 'The ones who hated KT' or the 'ones who disliked KT'. I think we clearly can cross out the option with the hating because this is...just too harsh.
Of course this stirred even more drama...some people were really pissed off, some other managed to be super dramatic and publish FB posts about 'not being able to support KT because they are mean and dear Koki is a poor victim who never wanted to leave'.
(This was pretty interesting for me because it also showed that there are Koki fans in this world who are actually against fanservice and don't like pervy jokes. Upps. Wrong group then I guess)

This moment was the one when some of us started to think 'Huh what's happening here' I guess. because we all know Kame. He 'cares' about what people think about him. He cares about what fans think about him...his group members, the people he works with, other Johnny's, Japan, maybe even the neighbors’ dog. Who knows. He is a professional who knows when you should say something...and when you shouldn't. And when maybe it's just better to stay quiet or try to deal with everything in a very diplomatic way.
But even looking back at all the other videos we had in October/November, you could clearly see that he *is* pissed off and that he is bitter and that probably he ...doesn't even have any problems to say it out loud.

So everything was still okay...lots of people said that he had a right to say that and that they do understand, but that it still hurt, of course. Nothing was too dramatic tho.
Until the last both videos came out (yesterday's 'kao ga sugoi' and today's...I will forever forget the name) and personally I really went wtf O_o hearing his words. Because I'm simply not used to him being *so* blunt on TV and simply saying the stuff he wants to say...
They basically talked about the NGs Johnny's have and they all insisted in the beginning that they actually don't have any, After going through some really weird and difficult stuff...(Like being hit bei a fan, eating way too hot curry and having a lobster sticking to your nose etc)
Kame said that...The only NG for Johnny's is having a store (business)


I guess you all can imagine what about this statement was...and *how* blunt it was. It's one thing to not ignoring your ex members another one to openly talk *and* subtly or well not too subtly criticize them on tv.
And while personally I'm a KT fan for just two years, I really don't think that Kame ever was...like that. This kind of shocks and amazes me in the same time. Especially because I don't really know whether I should be happy about it (because yeay! He is honest and blunt and *has every right* to say this, considering how much they all were hurt) or maybe not that much (because most of Japanese fans are still supporting Koki and are hurt by such statements, and you can guess that right now is maybe not the best time to piss fans off because they can't allow themselves to lose more.)

Another shock was during today's show (which was amazing and awesome btw. They are just so normal and kind and look so comfortable together, even if they were forced to wake up at I don't even know what time, staying around in the cold and then managing to get sea sick...).
During the last few minutes of the bangumi when they were driving, Kame started to talk about how great it was to have this trip concerning memories, the growing bond between and etc.
And even before...the snowman...Or '天の声' The voice from the heaven, which was a super mean guy who was doing jokes about them being 5 or 6 nin in the past ALL THE TIME. I stopped counting after all the 'uh? Weren’t you supposed to be 5' and 'please don't become 3 next year!' but it even got worse, because after Kame's great speech he said something like:

I edited the post and just gonna link to a full translation of this scene: click




I don't know how much Japanese some people here know and whether you have any idea about the different usage of the different pronouns in Japanese. But this 'aitsu' one of the...let's say less polite ways to say 'him'. And looking back at Kame talking about 'bonds' and saying that it should have been Koki instead who should have done this to learn it, practically shows how little Kame is expecting Koki to think about bonds within a group?
Azabu is similar to Roppongi when it comes to bars and other stuff. And it's also the place where Koki's bar is located.
(Talking about this, there is one of their older interviews they did in summer and where they were talking about people they can trust and Kame said:
'Don’t I often say that I don’t have friends? Once I trust someone I go on and show everything about myself, but I don’t have shallow relationships. It’s my prejudice but I won’t be friend with people who are like “I’m every night at Nishi-Azabu”, and fundamentally, our talks won’t match.' (Wink Up 2013.06 c.Iside)
I remember how back then a good friend of mine was joking how this was a subtle criticism aimed at Koki and I was totally denying this because I really didn't thought that he would say something like this about his group member in a *magazine*. Well I guess my point of view changed now...
And again...KAME!
Just...I guess I really got used to him being all smiley and rarely saying any 'bad' stuff on tv. I really don't know what changed now, and I think we all can just guess the reasons.
He is not stupid. He knows that these statements will shock and even make people angry, because these words are harsh. They are certainly true. But they ARE harsh. They are so harsh that this will make him lose fans, because especially Japanese fans are very touchy when it comes to such topics, and he still doesn't seem to care.
Maybe he is just so bitter and angry that he can't help but say this out loud. Maybe being forced more than 3 years to be quiet about any angry feelings he had about Jin made him snap.
And now being allowed to make jokes about their past...he just uses this opportunity to really say everything he wants to say.
And I'm really wondering what will happen now because after this past 2 weeks every next show will start with the 10000$ question about 'what will he say this time...'
And personally I'm kind of torn between being happy that he is just honest and blunt and being worried because...they are still idols and they still have fans to please, and I just hope this won't go over board. Bu knowing him and knowing that he really wouldn't say anything like this unless it's *really* important for him...I guess this is something he just *needs* to say, and well I gonna support this no matter what.
(And well I would be a big lier if I said that a part of me isn't enjoying all of this...)

Current Mood: determineddetermined
27 December 2013 @ 03:05 pm
I stole this thing from Gina (who got it from tumblr? XD) because it looked like fun *g*
And I'm bored and have nothing better to do anyway, so let's get started >___<

[click]1:What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
One of the reasons why I will forever remember 2013 as the ‘wtf happened here I don’t remember anything’ year, is that I barely have done anything. Really. I think I didn’t even move that much. I’m a hermit who spends her life in front of the pc, doing nothing. Orz.

2:Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn’t have any, because I never keep them *g*
But I think I will try to be calmer this year and stop giving a fuck about stuff happening around me.

3:Did anyone close to you give birth?

4:Did anyone close to you die?

5:What countries did you visit?
Turkey. And me and Mum planned to got to Scotland but I managed to get ill ;_;

6:What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013
Motivation. Courage. The will do ‘something’.

7:What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Nothing special if it comes to RL I guess.
Other then this. 09 October. No need to say more.

8:What was your biggest achievement of the year?
As stupid as it might sound…I managed to meet old friends from school. Thrice. After I graduated, the first year I couldn’t even ‘talk’ to them, because I remembered school, and I HATE my highschool time. I HATE it. The first months after graduating I felt sick to just riding the same bus. So I actually felt pretty proud to manage to meet them again without freaking out and feeling the need to stay home.

9:What was your biggest failure?
Failure? I didn’t fail anything serious I guess. But if…maybe getting to much involved in fandom and trying to help/please too many people. I don’t see any sense in it anymore, and I really feel better now without doing it =3

10:Did you suffer illness or injury?
I had a really annoying coughing which lasted for more than 2 months T_T.

11:What was the best thing you bought?
Fandom Goods =D

Lots and lots of fandom goods. I think the most precious thing for me this year are the kusabi cds and a pink soft turtle plushie I bought.


Oh and I’m also absolutely in love with my small tablet I bought this summer. <333

12:Whose behaviour merited celebration?
In Real Life. My Mum. I will never get tired to say this, but I LOVE my mom. She is the best mom you can imagine. She listens to my fandom complaints, she listens to my fangirling, she knows who Kame is and she spent hours with me when I was a crying mess because of what happened in October.
She doesn’t judge me and she isn’t trying to change me, and for this I love and adore her.

In Fandom. Isi and Gabbi. If not these two (sending lots of love to you girls <3) I would have gone craaaaaaazy >_>

Other then that. Kame, Kame and forever Kame.
I guess most of my fandom friends know what I’m referring to, so no need to explain =3

2013 is also the year where I completely changed my opinion about Nakamaru because he said a few things which really…made me respect him. I love this weird man =)

13:Whose behaviour made you appalled?
In Real Life…some people from my family. Especially my aunt. Because she is a money addicted bitch who rarely cares about anything else, doesn’t spend time with her kids and then wonders, why they are weird. Orz.This woman drives me crazy. CRAZY.

In fandom…well the fandom itself? XDD But what’s new. I remember how I said on twitter some weeks ago that I wish for a bag of stones for christmas, so I could throw them on people.
But I’m feeling really calmer now (after I unfollowed a bunch of people and installed filters basically everywhere XD)

Other then that…

Some ex idol who decided to fuck up his life.

14:Where did most of your money go?

15:What did you get really, really, really excited about?
KAT-TUN?! XD The last months were basically a rollercoaster full of emotions. And I’m just really, really happy and grateful to have them back. They are amazing. <3

16:What song will always remind you of 2013?

I don’t really know tbh. I rarely associate songs with years.
But if I had to choose…the 4nin of RF. Because of too many reasons tbh =)

17:Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
Right now I’m really happy =D But I tend to be happy most of the time =D So I think…same?

Other then that I gained some kilos and am broken like always XD

18:What do you wish you’d done more of?
Studying. I’m too lazy. Doing some more things than just sitting here XD Socialising more.

19:What do you wish you’d done less of?
Eating XD And sleeping. I sleep way too much.

20:How did you spend Christmas?
Because my whole family comes from Russia, we don’t really celebrate Christmas the way everyone else does. (For us the big holiday with presents and co is New Year =))

But my aunt has birthday on the 25th so we always spend this day together =)

21:Did you fall in love in 2013?

22:What was your favourite TV program?
Tv Program…I watched lots of stuff this year.

For Japanese doramas it surely would be Legal High, because I simply love this show and Sakai Masato is an incredibly good actor. And also Junno….Junno my love. He was amazing there, I loved his role =3
For non-japanese series…I really liked Game of Thrones and currently I started to watch Dracula cause if Gina, and it’s also really, really good =D

23:Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes. But I still don’t like the world ‘hate’. I think ‘despise’ is better in this case.

There is also another person I absolutely stopped caring about and a bunch of other people I really started to dislike.
Before this I had this strict opinion about not hating/disliking anyone at all, but I honestly don’t care about this anymore. Let me be a bad person.

24:What was the best book you read?
I…didn’t read any x_x Or wait I did, on my vacation in Turkey, but it was horrible. Some crap about fallen angels.
I guess I should

25:What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nothing special, I still listen to mostly the same stuff =3

26:What did you want and get?
Don't remember O_o

27:What did you want and not get?
Too many things XD

28:What was your favourite film of this year?
OreOre and the Hobbit =D OreOre because it has so many KAMES in it. And he was amazing and great and I love him <33333

And the Hobbit, because it was my most favorite book when I was a kid. And I’m so happy that it was made into a film. And the second part had Legolas in it, so my fangirl self was more than happy =3

29:What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Realising that it’s totally okay to stop caring about certain people and just spend your live in a quiet corner with a few friends.

Having KT back.

Starting to understand more Japanese.

Changing from being a Kame to a KT fan in the first place. (yes, this sounds ridiculous, but it costed me some sleepless nights, don’t laugh XD)

30:How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
What is Fashion? Who cares?

31:What kept you sane?
Close fandom friends.
My best friend <3

32:Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Kame *~*

And Ueda. 2013 is Ueda’s year. You sexy, gorgeous man, stop breaking our poor hearts <333

33:What political issue stirred you the most?
I don’t care about Politics.

34:Who did you miss?
I still miss my cat. My mom has some serious health issues and we had to give him away to my dad. And even tho I’m spending several hours a week with him I miss my baby :_;

35:Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
I just came across this post on tumblr 2 days ago, and it’s says pretty much everything.

Anything else what changed in 2013?
I changed a lot. And I mean A LOT of opinions. So if you...remember me saying something, don't be sure that I still think the same now >__<'

I hope everyone has amazing holidays and will have a great start into 2014 =D

Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: KAT-TUN - Crazy Love
17 December 2013 @ 01:16 pm

I guess everyone watched it. Kame and Kame's glorious ass. (yes I love his ass, well who don't)
Just few days ago Fandom basically went a bit O_o at the short clip which was uploaded on YT and got more than 600k fews just in two? days before it as deleted of course.
But basically I don't even want to talk about this but about...2Chan XD
XD if someone here still has no idea about this site. It's like a huge Japanese internet platform where people can comment every single topic anonymously.
Something very close to all the memes here I guess.
And basically 2chan is an evil evil site with evil evil people who likes to be mean to every creature out there (but Tokio XD) and who actually likes Kame? (I always guessed that it's more or less cuz more male people do know him co-hosting Going and be all ♥____♥ at baseball)
Aaaaand basically this little cute clip ended up on 2ch and got some very....verrrrrry lovely comments XD


And I honetsly can't stop laughing, because

I'm straight but I honestly want to kiss him

I'd rather make love to Kamenassyi than do it with an ugly girl

LOLing at how he has all the qualities to become a center.
He'll look much better there than Sashi.

I'd give my full support if Kame was the center

Kamenashi looks so beautiful after seeing Sashihara so I'm getting really scared that I feel like I'm awakening to something

He's prettier than Sashihara

If they make Kamenashi-kyun the center, there's a danger that everyone else will just fade in front of him

Do people turn gay for him just because?? XD
Anyway, I just woke up and read this and it made my whole day and I really can't stop laughing because it's lovely and funny, and it just really feels  good to hear this as a fan =)

On another note I'm almost on my Chrismas break and didn't feel that good in a whole while. Our boys are doing just fine <3 And I don't remember the time where they were that busy with tv appereances.
Basically I really don't care how much fandom hates Johnny and J&A but personally I'm just really, really happy and grateful that they didn't let them fall but gave them...another chance and are really wokring hard to get at least a somehow better image than before. They're doing great and look happy and even Kame stopped looking like a walking Zombie. Can't wait for them performing Gimme Luv and White X'mas on scp and I still hope that Uepi will be able to perform his solo there too =) Also looking really forward to ther Music Station super LIve and the two Bangumis/specials which will follow after it. I believe that 2014 will be an amazing year =D



Don't click if you haven't watched his pv/ don't want any leaks/don't want to die from too much hotness.
If you haven't watched but would like to, just poke me via pm. I might be asleep in some hours tho >_<'

So again:
(Plus there are about 15 gifs under this cut, don't be surprised if your Pc dies, it's not my fault. It's Ueda's)

[The hottest wolf you&apos;ve ever seen]

So...I gonna try and start this post not with a capslock keysmash...(even tho I totally would like to)
Since the special project was announced, the two pvs I was looking forward the most were Kame's and Ueda's.
Kame is pretty obvious...Ueda...because he is a little music genius and his head is full of weird, awesome and amazing ideas.
(And I will forever cry because mouse peace never got a release and we will never hear this perfect songs in HQ. SHAME ON YOU JE! Shame on you that you don't want to have our money!)
So I was absolutely sure that his pv would be all sorts of amazing. But...it's even more than this *___*


Just look at these sexy red eyes. UNFF.

And his HANDS ;_; I LOVE these...claws on his fingers. Just same weeks ago I was watching some promotional video about a brand called 'Fangophilia' and thought that these things they're creating are pretty cool. And the stuff he is wearing here, looks just like this.

I love the concepts of this pv. It's kind of sad that it wasn't released a bit eralier...it would have been such an amazing Halloween song.
Everything. The clothes, his make up, the set, the different characters who are running around, the atmosphere. I simply adore it.

And anyway...can we please talk about what has happened with this man? Lately he just got this... *____* aura and I'm basically rolling around on the floor every single time new photo shootings come out and just...Why so sexy Uepi? *_*
Talking about the well known theory about Johnny' who turn 30...I so completely agree. *weeps in a corner*

I loved the scene where he was all boss-like, snipping with the fingers

And Junno, you precious, precious man ♥

He looked so crazy here XD Have I already said that I simply adore this make-up?!

Honestly...I will never understand Japanese weird obsession with non Japanese kids. Just...why? O_o
But well...even tho I really am confused cuz of this, the lil girl in the pv was kind of cute.

And his smile...his smile is so incredibly cute ♥

You sexy, gorgous man...

I really can't even put in words how much I love this pv. It's simply amazing. And it's so much...Ueda-like?
I'm pretty sure this will be my favorite pv from their solos (yes, I know we still need Kame's...but I don't trust this man when it comes to solos...In the end we will have again some sparkly backround and a touching...ballad. Ballad. Why does he love them so much. *whines* I honestly gonna cry if his next solo will be a ballad too. I would sell my soul for something like 'Plastic tears' or 'Bad Dream' or even better... something rock-ish ;_;)
Anyway. Ueda is amazing. And this pv is amazing and I need this in HQ, so I can sit infront of my TV and adore his prettniess a bit more.

I was already telling it Isi today, but I'm just so incredibly happy to see him like this. Comparing him to some years ago, where he was so akwardly quiet...
He is shining and he is gorgeous and I really hope that one day a miracle will happen and we'll get a solo album from him...*weeps*

(p.s: I even showed it my mum XD Right after we finished watching ore ore. I'm so incredibly proud of her. It was her very first Japanese movie, and she hates watching stuff with subs. So I'm just really, really happy that she watched it with me. And after watching the pv (she was smiling all the time) she said that it was totally cool and looks like a musical.
And that he is pretty *g*
I will never stop saying how awesome my mom is ♥

On a totally different note...
They were so cute and akward together and this world needs more KT x News interaction.


(Stolen from itz_menos)

I should go and sleep now...but there are still no other leaks out yetand I really don't want to be asleep when they appear x__x

Current Mood: hyperhyper
Current Music: Ueda Tatsuya - Monster Night
15 November 2013 @ 12:00 am



Honestly this is so awesome I don't even know what to say ;____;
They are so handsome and so amazing and this is A FUCKIN FORREST, OKAY?!?!
I'm so incredibly proud of them and happy and touched and just everything and I really will never be able to put in words how much I love these amazing men.
Just thank you and welcome back boys.

Major gif spam ahead, you have been warned.








Current Mood: hyperhyper